"Vita non est vivere sed valere vita est"

November 29, 2006

For so many days I saw the numbers in the scale, stay put, don't move , they seemed dead. Did I insulted them ? What Did I say ? What Did I do ? Why the don't like me any more ? Seemed like a bad date, please not again.

I can't handle them not moving, they most move, yes, and move in the right direction. I have become dependant, they can make me happy or sad, they affect my mind, my soul, my heart, they can ruin a whole day or they can give me a huge high. What a weird relationship.

Then, they started to show some signs of life, I could feel them breathing, turning around, shaking, moaning, waking-up. Finally they started moving their little feet, timidly, afraid, insecure. They were driving me crazy, nut, is this possible ? Did they move away from our goal, is this happening, is this a nightmare? God please be merciful. But then something happened, they stopped turn around and with a touch of superiority and a quirky smile, strolled back the right way. What a Peace of mind, is so possible is so probable. Yes it was happening, I was so joyful, they didn't move much , but they did, they settle themselves at 257 lbs, that's 2lbs closer to that beautiful city that I call LIFE, I call living, because LIFE is more than merely staying alive.

Do something, Do anything, Get Going, NOW.



November 18, 2006

Another milestone achieved, I was able to break 3 small goals this week, all have to do with running, Don't worry I have not forgotten that my goal is weight-loss, not to run faster.

2 Miles

I runned/jogged/walked 2 miles under 26 minutes

1 Mile

I broke the 12 minute barrier by running 1 mile in 11:48

1/4 Mile ( 400 meters)

in only 2 minutes 22 seconds

So there you have it, I feel really good that I am increasing my speed and also decreasing my time. If I keep at it (I hope) I will be able to run in 5k race pretty soon. I have been losing about 1000 calories a day by exercise alone, just too bad that I lost control of my eating for so long, the last 2 days I have been eating healthy and less calories that I need so I hope I can see some weight loss this week, cross my fingers.

Do something, Do anything, Get Going, NOW.


Déjà Vu

November 14, 2006

I have been so steady, so on the job, on my struggle to be healthy and less heavy. It seemed too easy somehow, I wanted to tap my head and say How come you Couldn’t do it before ? Well is not easy , let me tell you. All I needed to fall in chaos was some major stress in my life, like, 10 days ago something happened that make me be my old self, scare, stressful, feeling overwhelm and full of doubt. WHAMP I started eating lie there was no tomorrow, I can’t believe how soothing and calming food is, movies are calming too but they don't increase your weight. I thought it was going to be like a day or two, but my binge when on for almost a week, and I ate everything I was fighting not to eat, I drank Coke like water and sat in front of the TV with a 2lbs container of Chocolate Ice cream, topped with chocolate syrup of course. It was me all over again running to food to feel in control, it was déjà Vu, it was the Matrix reloaded

I can see now how easy is to fall back on your bad habits, I get full of anxiety just to think that I can put pounds on. No please , No.

The good news is that , I kept exercising so I didn't increase my weight. I just feel sad to be stuck in 259 lbs for so long.

Do something, Do anything, Get Going, NOW.


The Secret of my Success

November 03, 2006

I think one of the most important factors in my struggle to lose weight is to keep myself motivated, motivation is the key, motivation is the thing that will make you decide to lose weight, motivation is what will keep you coming back to the GYM day after day, motivation is what will keep you going when you are tired and mentally quitting. I do believe that we quit mentally first, emotionally, our body’s can still go but we think in the comfort of the sofa or in the great taste of a chocolate bar and our knees shake in weakness. In my personal case I already have some mental images that I can focus on to give me the boost to continue when tired or bored and every one of you can Do it , FIND IT, try different things until you find something that really works, you will feel it in your bones when you find it and maybe even contain your emotions so you don't show them to your treadmill neighbor, is not easy to hide the redness in your eyes and the tears coming out of your eyes, although the winter season and its associated flu’s and cold's is the best time for a cover-up.

Another important factor in my case is feeling comfortable when exercising, slack clothe, loose comfortable shorts. I can feel the difference in my mood when I can’t wear (Washing issue) my favorite items, I feel more conscious and uneasy. Your shoes are a must, they have to be comfortable, so you don’t even think of them. I made the original mistake of trying to walk and jog with my Basketball shoes and they were ok for 10-15 minutes but after that I started feeling mindful of my steps as it bothered me a bit, later at home, my feet ached, not a lot but enough to call my attention. so I decided to buy running shoes, what a difference it made, My feet has not been an issue since that day. The ones I bought are like middle of the road shoes, no self-appointed runner will ever buy them, so don't worry about price , you can find decent ones at good prices, I'll say at least, half the price of the tennis you buy your trendy teenage boy. Mine are new balance , the widest I could find and they keep my feet out of pain, please do it, because this time, you will lose weight for good , this time you and I will never go back to our previous weight.

The problem I have, now, is that I have to carry 2 pairs of shoes to the GYM because I play a bit of basketball when I can and if I play competitive my running shoes will not do, they are not made for those sudden stops and acceleration and drastic direction changes, no traction and they get lose too easy. Well that's life.

The third thing I am talking about today is MUSIC, music can change your emotional behavior very easy, so I use it to give me emotional drive. To be trustful with you , I just can't do it with out it. The days I forget my MP3 player, I feel weaker and I tend to exercise less time and less strong, seriously. That was my other investment I did , my mp3 player, is not an iPod, just a generic player , with 1 GIG of memory so it can hold plenty of music or audio books, or recording of your daughter saying "I love you Mom". I tried originally with my old CD player , but it was cumbersome trying to burn CD's to accommodate what I wanted to listen to, so I bitted the bullet and bought an mp3 player. One of the best decisions ever, it has helped me so much on my program.

I usually listen to music when on the treadmill and when on the bike I tend to listen to a Pod cast or an audio book. It will take you a while to find the right combination of music that makes you feel energized and motivated to help you on your exercise. I am uploading my generic 30 min Hard( like I want to push my aerobics and sweat) treadmill work-out so you can listen to what I listen when on the sweat factory. For the rest of the time I listen to a more soft and wide variety, some of my favorites are David Usher, ColdPlay, Five for Fighting, Smashing Pumpkins, Elton John, Cat Stevens, Kansas, Queen, Lifehouse, Gavin Degraw, Howie Day, Smash Mouth , The Killers , Early November and Salsa of course.

30 Min Hard treadmill workout (includes 5-10 min warm out and stretching)

1. Yolanda Adams - I Believe I can Fly

2. Black Eyed Peas - Don't Phunk With My Heart

3. Yolanda Adams - I Believe

4. Yolanda Adams - I am Thankful

5. Yolanda Adams - Never Give Up

6. Rihanna - Pon De Replay

7. Elton John - Tiny Dancer

I hope I can keep motivating myself in any way possible to get to my 102 pounds goal. Do something, Do anything, Get Going, NOW.